Letting go

Letting go the branch in the flood

Feels like drowning, head in the bone

Take me with you, river of blood

To see me rising on a stepping stone

Empower me, Master of mine

Let your sun again shine

Let your Son raise vine

Out of water divine

What have you done to me perpetrator of all

Neither might nor sword will conquer my soul

I’ll fight back as hard as I can

By cutting off your unspoken ban

Timeless rest surrounds me awhile

You nourish me with your vial

Take me along in your hand

Over grain and over sand

Loneliness

Loneliness embraces me as the shadows sink

Familiar feeling I know you but too well

To crush in my redemption I must take the fall

Fall with me – don’t leave me alone

Darker times ahead

The rivers of glory depend on what you sow

The finished works of Jesus cannot grow

Unless the grain falls dead

Along the watch towers no news

Pure trust keeps the flame burning

An inquiry of nothing to lose

Fills out the formless yearning

Bleed with me my saviour

Take me back in dreams

Wanna dwell in the circle of love

Where’s your secret garden grove

The tunnel

You promised me creativity

Wanna stir it up in me

Take me as I am

Banging my head like a ram

String music lifts me up

You fill full my cup

Overflow is what I need

The solution to me is speed

Headlights on, going underground

A journey into the unknown

You declared my rhythm is right

I head into the night

Still without insight

I rely on your word

That it will guide

Till sunrise gives light

Communication must be intensified

I dare you speak into my life

My soul must take flight

So cast down all strife

Hearts

I feel like a dried-out sponge…

For how long will I flee from you?

You just want to love me and cure my heart

But when all is revealed I fall apart.

The more I fail the greater is your mercy

I’m running away from you

Just to have our next encounter

Then you’ll love me again as if nothing happened.

Accepting my brokenness sure did help

But how can I come up with the strength

To manifest a victory given away

As soon as I think I have overcome?

Facing my defeat, giving up on hiding

The time of confrontation has come

I’m showing up my empty heart

In desperate need for your love.

Shutting the gate behind me

I’ll hoist my banner of surrender and triumph alike

Exposing myself to death divine

And a resurrection yet to come for sure.

Relationship

What else does it take

To dismiss the pain?

It’s just pure love

I want to gain.

Everything I do

I do it in vain.

Reckoning the solution

For my salvation:

I’ll kill this vulture

With your final sepulture.

In need of a mourning so deep

I’m only been longing to weep.

Going on the graveyard towards you belong

Holding your casket walking in front

Laying you down with the help of my friend

There comes the glimpse waiting for oh so long.

With music in my ear

Worshipping my dear

God of rest and comfort

For being here.

Now breaking through this darkened layer

He’s strengthening me being the sayer

Of encouraging words by his Spirit with might

Who is my companion holding me tight.

The memory of you is gone

Taken by the wind so cold.

Where are you now?

I cannot follow…

The Father

Standing my ground alone

Darkness befalls me

Senses of a weathering stone

The earth suffocates and drowns me.

It’s hard to believe that I’m all alone

After all what’s been done and still to come,

My wishes for the rest of my time

Will be those to accomplish the mission.

Father, hearest thou me?

I’m inbetween this jail of mine!

Father, how come it must be

This destiny is so hard to gain?

Loose strands of hope are all I can feel

During my time going by on the move.

Is it my disability to go for the real

Or this monstrous lack of letting in love?

Deeper within me the sun shines red

All to win and nothing to lose

Forgotten the lies that I’ve been fed

Treading the path which I choose.

Healing has come to me as I walked in this sun

Brighter it dwells wherever I run

Together now and forever with him

The Father is the answer to where it’s begun.